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Julie, here two months later I am finding this thread. Did you ever find a way to explain this day? I know I have had one. This felt so familiar, but it was probably a year or so ago since it happened. I can't for the life of me remember with any confidence what I decided had triggered it.
Was it when the neighbor-from-hell next door caused major problems? Or maybe when one of my loved-ones had suffered an insane injustice and then some other news of a relative that everyone feels sorry for cuz she's so very, very sincerely lost between her ears on so much had suffered yet another event of letting her adult kids walk on her and then I went-off on everything wrong in the world and around me? Sorry, just trying to get it.
But, have had a day like that and it's like I got to my limit but since I'm a meditative, very laid-back person except facing certain injustices (and then just the look on my face can make 10 cowboys back off and look at each other for consolation, LOL) this is rare for me. I take it in stride most of the time, and Mama used to tell others that of 3 daughters, I was the one she "couldn't get a rise out of." So, if we are like this, is it that once a year or so we overload and it all comes out, even if not loudly?
I recall the feeling of the end of a day, being alone here and I was no longer on auto-pilot, had vented enough and realized I was guilty for resenting instead of just venting. Not saying you were! I WAS, and recall listing for Jesus all of the times that day that I had griped at the world and had bad attitudes, just fed up, Scotty Beam me up! and I was not saying it with a grin on my face.
Well, this was a true report but I see I'm zero help here.
Familiar, oh yeah, at least can tell you that I've felt this before, alll day long.
Was it when the neighbor-from-hell next door caused major problems? Or maybe when one of my loved-ones had suffered an insane injustice and then some other news of a relative that everyone feels sorry for cuz she's so very, very sincerely lost between her ears on so much had suffered yet another event of letting her adult kids walk on her and then I went-off on everything wrong in the world and around me? Sorry, just trying to get it.
But, have had a day like that and it's like I got to my limit but since I'm a meditative, very laid-back person except facing certain injustices (and then just the look on my face can make 10 cowboys back off and look at each other for consolation, LOL) this is rare for me. I take it in stride most of the time, and Mama used to tell others that of 3 daughters, I was the one she "couldn't get a rise out of." So, if we are like this, is it that once a year or so we overload and it all comes out, even if not loudly?
I recall the feeling of the end of a day, being alone here and I was no longer on auto-pilot, had vented enough and realized I was guilty for resenting instead of just venting. Not saying you were! I WAS, and recall listing for Jesus all of the times that day that I had griped at the world and had bad attitudes, just fed up, Scotty Beam me up! and I was not saying it with a grin on my face.
Well, this was a true report but I see I'm zero help here.
Familiar, oh yeah, at least can tell you that I've felt this before, alll day long.