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01-14-2016, 05:37 PM
Wow NH Watcher - I am so sorry about your father.. After living in Las Vegas for 10+ years, I saw how gambling there ran people's lives. I gambled on slot machines a couple of times and got a tiny bit lucky, but it was never anything that grabbed a hold of me, like it did some people I knew. You would be surprised at how many of the Las Vegas cab drivers, upon receiving their paychecks, immediately go out to their favorite casinos, cash their checks and proceed to blow them right then. It's sad really..
You mentioned how God never ignores us, but in my case, I have felt like "he" is ignoring me.. I have prayed regularly since all of this started. Usually my first and last thoughts of the day are a prayer for answers, protection, and to watch over my family... But you know how in an argument a "non-response" can be a response? Many times I've felt like maybe I'm not meant to be in Colorado. Things aren't working out here, not getting any of the jobs I've applied to, it just seems like it's been one thing after another.. Yet at the same time, there are no doors opening that would allow me to return back to Hawaii. So it's a contradiction. I'm not meant to be here, but not in Hawaii either. Actually, nothing has really pointed me in the right direction yet... I usually have all the faith in the world when it comes to trusting God, but this time around, I feel like maybe he doesn't know the answer yet either? Lol
You mentioned how God never ignores us, but in my case, I have felt like "he" is ignoring me.. I have prayed regularly since all of this started. Usually my first and last thoughts of the day are a prayer for answers, protection, and to watch over my family... But you know how in an argument a "non-response" can be a response? Many times I've felt like maybe I'm not meant to be in Colorado. Things aren't working out here, not getting any of the jobs I've applied to, it just seems like it's been one thing after another.. Yet at the same time, there are no doors opening that would allow me to return back to Hawaii. So it's a contradiction. I'm not meant to be here, but not in Hawaii either. Actually, nothing has really pointed me in the right direction yet... I usually have all the faith in the world when it comes to trusting God, but this time around, I feel like maybe he doesn't know the answer yet either? Lol