Epiphany

[ThePaladin]

We get sick for a variety of reasons. Sometimes it's the body's way of saying "For pity's sake, you need to slow down and be still for a while!" Other times it's the body's way of letting you know there's something that needs to be worked on and getting you sick is an attempt to get your attention. I tell people that it was no wonder I got cancer, a disease that eats you up inside, given all the shit I had eating me up inside. But the cancer was more than just my body's way of telling me I had to deal with my shit before it killed me. It was also the means to get me out of my routine, out of my rut, to be still, and also to get me up to the mother ship where they could work on me.

All that is a long way of saying that it might behoove you to sit with this illness and find out what it's trying to tell you. Find out what lessons it has to teach you, what messages it wants you to know. Find out what your body is trying to tell you. See what comes up, what wounding has been stuck in your body and which prevents you from moving forward that you didn't even realize was there. Who knows? Maybe this is part of your journey and it's necessary for you to discover how to use this illness to walk in service on the Mother. But until you work on your inner healing, your outer healing will be elusive. You will feel better for a while but it will return, possibly even stronger than before, until it's a matter of "there, now that ought to get her attention."

Sometimes our destiny is simply to work towards our perfect, healed state...because as we heal, our healing radiates outward into the world, into the universe, and helps heal everyone and everything around us.