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05-11-2016, 08:09 PM
Freestone, I can't divulge what I know, other than to say the 'original plan' was too terrible to unleash, that there is a 'divine safe zone' for a 'nested next-generation' to spring from, and that we will poison them and doom them if we try to survive to influence them in any way. There is a great contradiction in saying one believes in 'a creator', and then trying to survive into another age he does not want, or need you to survive into. This is the paradox of survivalism, at its worst.
I was, most likely, to play a far more significant role than I did or will, due to something I did a time ago. I refused to carry on when someone was taken from me. I couldn't (and won't) let it go to 'take a new companion', and I am pretty confident that due to my stubbornness on this one issue, I caused my own 'beneficial write-out' of any grander purpose. To this, my creator and I have come to one agreement - I DON'T CARE. He doesn't need this much carnage to tell such a horror story, and my total shredding, my decimation, wasn't required to tell some 'companion, pt.2' junky story. He and I appear to have unresolvable issues that I won't let go. In my case, it's not about belief - I just blatantly think he was cruel for the sake of a story line, and as a result, I resigned.
So, I guess I get spoken to on occasion, and tell what I'm not supposed to keep suppressed. I'm not argumentative about it, just not outgoingly participating, either though. It's not that I think more of myself than I am, quite the contrary, it's that I don't seek anything greater than a front porch and cold ice water. Everything else that matters wasn't only taken from me, but a replacement was planned that I absolutely have no need of.
Like I said, I know more than I can share, other than high-level summaries.
On a small hint, though, I can tell you that there are several that were planned to be 'much greater' than they are - and all that I was aware of have either gone off-track, or quit too. This may, in fact, be why that the story is far more 'earthly political' than 'widescreen angel warfare in the heavens' now. It seems even creation had to go to their plan 'C', because they caused too much damage to too many key players to stay on track for what they originally planned to do.
Maybe, it was better for everyone this way, too. I don't know.
I was, most likely, to play a far more significant role than I did or will, due to something I did a time ago. I refused to carry on when someone was taken from me. I couldn't (and won't) let it go to 'take a new companion', and I am pretty confident that due to my stubbornness on this one issue, I caused my own 'beneficial write-out' of any grander purpose. To this, my creator and I have come to one agreement - I DON'T CARE. He doesn't need this much carnage to tell such a horror story, and my total shredding, my decimation, wasn't required to tell some 'companion, pt.2' junky story. He and I appear to have unresolvable issues that I won't let go. In my case, it's not about belief - I just blatantly think he was cruel for the sake of a story line, and as a result, I resigned.
So, I guess I get spoken to on occasion, and tell what I'm not supposed to keep suppressed. I'm not argumentative about it, just not outgoingly participating, either though. It's not that I think more of myself than I am, quite the contrary, it's that I don't seek anything greater than a front porch and cold ice water. Everything else that matters wasn't only taken from me, but a replacement was planned that I absolutely have no need of.
Like I said, I know more than I can share, other than high-level summaries.
On a small hint, though, I can tell you that there are several that were planned to be 'much greater' than they are - and all that I was aware of have either gone off-track, or quit too. This may, in fact, be why that the story is far more 'earthly political' than 'widescreen angel warfare in the heavens' now. It seems even creation had to go to their plan 'C', because they caused too much damage to too many key players to stay on track for what they originally planned to do.
Maybe, it was better for everyone this way, too. I don't know.