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12-15-2017, 07:32 AM
Oh wow! Thank you for sharing your story with me. It is very inspirational and it seems like we have some things in common. I came from a very abusive family as well, much like yours from the sound of it. I'm just so sorry you had to go through all the things you had to go through! One of the most terrible things, I think, is not having loving parents to support and protect you. Your outlook is amazing! I love that you call yourself a warrior! And you are! You fought off TERMINAL CANCER!? That is AMAZING! How hard that must have been! And painful too! I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy and I'm so sorry you had to suffer through that, but that is truly amazing!
I was angry at my parents (especially my mother) for a while. Aside from their abuse, they didn't protect me from predators. Through the years, though, rather than stay angry, I just began to feel sorry for them. I could tell, as I got older, that they had some issues of their own and that they were just people, like many people, trying to survive and live life the best they knew how. Growing up, my brother and sister were treated well so I fortunately didn't have to worry about protecting them the way you had to worry about your siblings. I couldn't imagine having to deal with such a huge burden at a young age. My brother became pretty violent, but when it came to my little sister, my parents stayed on top of that. From what I was told, my mother got very sick when she was pregnant with me and almost died. For a short time they lost me, then afterwards she suffered from terrible hallucinations and delusions involving me. (I'm guessing postpartum depression or something to do with eclampsia) She couldn't get past whatever it was and could never form a bond with me. My dreaming and seeing things didn't help and just creeped her out. Fortunately, I learned what NOT to do and try extra hard to be a loving and supportive mother.
I'll get myself "The 4 Agreements" for Christmas this year~ I just read the description and reviews on Amazon and am super excited. I LOVE getting new books! Ill probably grab "The New Earth" after I finish.
I'm sorry you didn't get to be with your soulmate, but very glad that you found someone perfect for you and that you are happy! Maybe in time I will find someone like that for me as well! But for now I plan on collecting myself, taking care of my children and getting back into college. I think that I will do a little ceremony. Not sure how I will go about it just yet, but it seems like a very good idea. I could never get him to hear me and he would often invalidate my feelings, I never felt understood. I've had a hard time trying to understand why he couldn't see me for who I was. A little ceremony might add some closure and help me release some of this negativity I still have towards him.
I was angry at my parents (especially my mother) for a while. Aside from their abuse, they didn't protect me from predators. Through the years, though, rather than stay angry, I just began to feel sorry for them. I could tell, as I got older, that they had some issues of their own and that they were just people, like many people, trying to survive and live life the best they knew how. Growing up, my brother and sister were treated well so I fortunately didn't have to worry about protecting them the way you had to worry about your siblings. I couldn't imagine having to deal with such a huge burden at a young age. My brother became pretty violent, but when it came to my little sister, my parents stayed on top of that. From what I was told, my mother got very sick when she was pregnant with me and almost died. For a short time they lost me, then afterwards she suffered from terrible hallucinations and delusions involving me. (I'm guessing postpartum depression or something to do with eclampsia) She couldn't get past whatever it was and could never form a bond with me. My dreaming and seeing things didn't help and just creeped her out. Fortunately, I learned what NOT to do and try extra hard to be a loving and supportive mother.
I'll get myself "The 4 Agreements" for Christmas this year~ I just read the description and reviews on Amazon and am super excited. I LOVE getting new books! Ill probably grab "The New Earth" after I finish.
I'm sorry you didn't get to be with your soulmate, but very glad that you found someone perfect for you and that you are happy! Maybe in time I will find someone like that for me as well! But for now I plan on collecting myself, taking care of my children and getting back into college. I think that I will do a little ceremony. Not sure how I will go about it just yet, but it seems like a very good idea. I could never get him to hear me and he would often invalidate my feelings, I never felt understood. I've had a hard time trying to understand why he couldn't see me for who I was. A little ceremony might add some closure and help me release some of this negativity I still have towards him.